Before I get into the purpose of this post and what I always wake up to on January 1, I want to say THANK YOU for being a friend of this little design studio and following along on this journey. This last year was just full. Full of love, change, gratitude, disappointment and sadness, figuring out how to deal with disappointment and sadness, travel, creativity and growth. If I have learned anything from these 30 years on earth, it’s that your year was probably full of the same types of ups and downs as mine, so know you aren’t alone, we are in this together. This year was also full of amazing projects, working with solo entrepreneurs on crafting their brand and place in the online world. I am thrilled with the projects I got to be a part of and feel like it’s only getting better!
As we enter the new year I also find that I like to re-think my purpose as a designer and figure out if I need to move and change anything in order to help myself grow in new directions. This my friends is still to be determined, but I have a feeling the magic ball says yes.
—- So here we go…..my welcome into 2016 —-
I am not sure why, but every time I wake up on January 1 I am surprised that I wake up feeling a few different ways (in no particular order):
1 | Full of LIFE! Like anything is possible. I could start to learn Japanese today and ain’t no thing, I can totally do it. I can do anything.
2 | Like I want to learn and grow and become a better version of myself, creatively, musically, in my business, in my personal life, within my friends, like there seems to be just a huge open space of possibilities and potential that I all of a sudden realized I should take advantage of (like it hasn’t’ been there for the last 365 days).
3 | I always wake up feeling like, okay this is the year when I become a phenoms. cook, when I will finally use all of those beautiful cookbooks I have collected for the last 5 years. I’ll be the one cooking the meals and with an effortless style. I’ll be the one people ask for for recipes and how-to’s, and I’ll do it seamlessly – no stress, it will just happen naturally and so Gwyneth Paltrow-esque.
4 | I will be more myself in every way, but especially in my professional life. I will be as unique in the world as I know I can be, and hey, I got this, just be you. Who cares about trends or what is “cool”, you got this.
5 | Set those big goals and make them happen. You can do anything!
It’s funny that these are re-occurring feelings every new year, but it’s kind of no surprise. There is so much hype and inspiration surrounding the concept of a fresh new year & new start that it gets everyone jazzed to become better, do better, live better, eat better, dream better. But then March comes around and it feels like that deep inspiration has slowly started to die and I am left feeling like I did at the end of the previous year. I don’t know about you, but I think that this cycle can stop, we just have to actively and purposefully force it to stop
I have also been thinking a lot about pain lately (I swear this will all tie together in a minute), why it is a thing, what is its purpose and how we can get around it, or just deal with it. While explaining this thought to Tyler, I said “It’s just like getting a bikini wax. You know that it’s going to hurt and you know when, so you anticipate it, but if you just acknowledge that pain is going to happen and that you are going to now take yourself out of the situation and see it for what it is, just another feeling, then your body starts to relax and the whole experience is way better.” He obviously couldn’t relate, but I think he got the picture. I think of these “New Year feelings” of hope and endless inspiration as just another feeling I have to acknowledge and take control of. If I really, really want to be a better cook, then yes I need to make time to practice, in turn I need to give up some time doing something else that I’m currently doing in my life. (The book Essentialism taught me this along with blowing my mind the whole way through.)
I hope that this year I really learn how to make the time and the moves to live in these feelings all year long. I hope that I don’t give up before March and I hope that by next January 1 I will have new feelings to wake up to.
I am excited for this year. I know it’s going to be a great one, and I wish you the best of years this year – dreaming and doing all the things your heart urges for. Thank you again for following along in this journey and for being a friend of this little space on the internet. Happy fresh, new year, friends!